Day 31, A Correction Step

“Everybody says a mistake is the first step of success, but the real fact is, correction of mistake is the first step of success.”
 

Morning

 
Last night and this morning, I ate a lot.  Let me think of how I can turn myself around.  I may have been dieting too strictly and triggered the starvation response.  I want to continue with my goal, but I may have to rethink my process, which worked for a time but was not sustainable.
 
What to do?  First, I need to reassure myself that I am okay.   Here is what I ate this morning, and I mean early morning.  I could not sleep.  The sleeping problems could have been triggered by eating last night.  Satchin Panda, Ph.D., describes that in his book The Circadian Code.
 

Green Drink

 
How can I compliment that with the rest of the day and make it work for me?  A green drink would probably work best as far as nutrition is concerned.  However, I probably will not feel like making one later in the day.  I could try fasting for the rest of the day, but I may get too ravenous again.
 
 
According to my calorie summary, I need more protein and more fat compared to my carbohydrates.  I could have a fat bomb with walnuts in it.  However, I had better wait before I eat more.  It is a mistake to eat too many calories just to balance out macronutrients.  What would ensure that I get a good night of sleep tonight?
 
Fortunately, after I ate this morning, I got back to sleep until my alarm sounded at 7:00 AM.
 

Emotional Vocabulary

 
I have been rereading Tony Robbins’ Awaken the Giant Within this morning.  He says that the vocabulary we use to describe our emotions limits and changes how we feel.  He recommends not using the ‘depression’ word.  Okay, so right now, I am temporarily feeling disempowered.  I am looking for ways to get the empowered feeling back.  I think the most important thing is not to give up this blog journey or my diet.  Or I will feel defeated.  Now is not the time to give up.
 

Correction Step

 
Maybe I could try a 1300-calorie-a-day diet rather than less than 1100.  Weight loss will not be as rapid, but I may avoid the severe side effects I have experienced, such as feeling faint.  I can still fast, but I will do so on more calories.  That means I need 636 more calories for today.  I can split that into two meals.
 
Success Mechanism
 
In 2019, I reread Maxwell Marx’s classic Psycho-Cybernetics.  His success mechanism impressed me.   In a nutshell, here are the steps:
 
 
SUCCESS MECHANISM
 
 
Step One. Have a goal.  It needs to be thought of as something that already exists.
 
Step Two. Think in terms of end results.  The means to get there may not be apparent, and that is okay.
 
Step Three. Do not be afraid of making mistakes or temporary failure.  The important thing is to get a goal in mind and act.  Respond to negative feedback by correcting errors.
 
Step Four.  Continue learning skills by trial and error, correcting mistakes immediately by visualizing a correct response.  Forget past errors and remember correct responses.
 
Step Five.  Learn to trust the success mechanism.  Do not force it but let it work.  The success mechanism works as you place a demand on it by your actions.
 
 
 
 
 
Correcting our course is what we are doing today.  We are not afraid of making mistakes or temporary failure.  We have the goal in mind and will act.
 
That feels a great deal more empowering.  My counselor will be zoom meeting me at 11:00 AM.  I want to be strong by the time I see her.  She could try to talk me out of this journey, and I will not allow that.
 
Have you run into roadblocks with your diet?  Diets are like that.  Whenever we change our bodies, our bodies say, “no way!”  People around us tell us to take it easy, too.
 

Evening

 
After a counseling session this morning and a cosmetologist visit this afternoon, I was sleepy.  I slept for quite a while.  I finished my diet diary.  As I predicted, it is not that well balanced without a green drink.  Let me show it to you so you can gauge the critical nature of green drinks.   I think I will give this a grade of B-.
 
Diet Diary
 
 
 

Prayer

 
 
EVENING PRAYER
 
Dear Lord,
 
I do not know how much weight I have gained back, but I can feel the difference.  It is disheartening.  Tomorrow, I will go back a step to green drinks and Mini Joy, which will balance my nutrients better than I did today.  However, as an experiment, I will have a few hundred more calories each day.  We will see if I can still lose weight that way.
 
Today has been emotionally rough.  My counselor raised an emotionally charged subject.  Today, I released myself from an obligation that was causing me emotional distress.  I want to distance myself from a relationship that undermined my self-confidence and threatened my marriage and, therefore, my security.
 
It is up to me to defend my boundaries.  I am not sure how easy or difficult that will be going forth.  I pray for the best.  As I regain my emotional footing, I pray my diet will fall back in place as well.
 
Amen.  
 
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