Day 268, Getting In The Mood

Day 268, Getting In The Mood

 
The most important decision you make is to be in a good mood.
 
 

Preparing For My Day

 
5-10 things i am grateful for:
  • learning that construction excavation at our former retirement complex revealed a dinosaur dig–how fun!
  • my neighbor across the hall; we had a great conversation this afternoon.
 
morning comments, feelings, ideas, moods, and empowering questions:
How can I get myself in the right mood to do things?  Act the part?
 
mood and energy:
 
0-100
comments
mood:
50
feeling about half-way between great and terrible, but I am still functional.
energy:
30
not really energetic today, but still moving
 
accomplishments:
 
accomplishment
reason it is important
next action(s)
1

showed slow weight loss for the past six months, as shown by this Cronometer graph.
Weight Loss Goal
Never give up on weight loss goal.
2
posted 3 blog entries the past 4 days.
Popular blog goal
Continue!
3
read 3 books: Recovering Sanity by Edward Podvoll, Lost Marbles by Natasha Tracy, and Got Bipolar? by Alfredo Zotti.
Mental Health
Apply what you learned.
4
started How to do more with less from Problogger.
Popular blog goal
Learn blogging and time management.
5
Followed a morning routine 10 of the last 11 days.
Time management
Continue on!
 

Thursday Afternoon

 
It has finally started to warm up here in the Denver metro area.  We had a very cool May, one of the coolest on record.
 

Weight Loss

 
I am progressing with my weight loss.  The progress is just so slow there is not much to talk about on a daily basis.  Fortunately, I tamed my TMJ with a night-guard, so my jaw does not ache so much at night after I stop eating.  I also increased my Armour Thyroid dose from 60 mg to 90 mg, based on my blood test for TSH (thyroid-stimulating hormone) and my doctor’s recommendation.  I believe the increased Armour thyroid caused an increase in my metabolism.  It seems to have also increased my appetite (I have been eating more), but my appetite could be stimulated from increased activity.  Continuing to take PQQ may also be increasing my metabolism.
 

Mood and Energy

 
My mood and energy continue to fluctuate, but the highs and lows are not disabling me as they have in the past, which is good.
 

Time Management

 
Check Lists
I am getting some advice from top bloggers on managing time.  One blogger, Gretchen Rubin, keeps detailed resolution charts, much like I keep a checklist in JV Life Tracker.  She has a checklist for a long list of resolutions, showing whether she kept each one or did not for the day.  Personally, I set a single resolution on January 1, 2019, and that was to lose weight.  If it takes me longer than a year, I will continue into the next.
 
My JV Life Tracker Master Activity List has a list of projects, self-care items, values, and miscellaneous daily or frequent to-do’s.  I check it off daily, just as Gretchen Rubin does with her resolutions.  The app allows me to run reports so I can see how many times I have checked off each activity or any combination of selected activities between any two dates.   For a more detailed description of what I do with JV Life Tracker, consult my free ebook Joyful Vibrance:  Transform Your Body Image, Energy, and Mood!
 
Starting
As you may have noticed, my mood and energy earlier in the day were not super hot.  However, I am working on my blog as if I feel okay.  And now that I have started writing, I do feel pretty good–good enough to write anyway.  The act of getting ourselves started is sometimes the hardest
thing to do.  Writer Jeff Goins says, “I don’t enjoy writing.  I do–I actually enjoy it when I start doing it, but I don’t know, there’s something about starting that feels really hard.”
 
As for myself, one thing that helps me write is writing every day.  That is something that also works for Jeff Goins.  If I go days without writing, I have to start myself again, and that can be hard.  In the past, when I tried to post a blog entry twice a month, it was enormously difficult.  Since September 5, 2018, I have posted more frequently, and it has been easier.  I find it very difficult to motivate myself to do anything every other day or even three times a week, but there are many daily tasks I can keep going.
 
Break It Into Chunks
Of course, we cannot do everything every day.  Sometimes those less frequent tasks need a push from us.  For big jobs, we can break a large task into small chunks.  I am studying the Colorado Drivers Handbook.  Trust me, it is not something you can study in one sitting.  I have sat down with it twice so far and am only on page 15 of 40.  However, if I persist with it, I believe I can get through it.
 
Already, I am amazed how tough the Colorado laws are.  I thought Utah was strict.  I think I read 11 pages the first day and four today.  Maybe I can ask myself to study five pages daily.  That way I will finish in five days.  I just put ‘Colorado Drivers Handbook 5’ in JV Life Tracker.  The ‘5’ is for completing five pages.
 
My goal is to finish by next Tuesday.  If I miss a day, the sky will not fall in, but I will have to go through the process of starting again.  There could be a lot of inertia.  It might work to fit it into my morning routine.  Let me add it to that, temporarily.  I will put it right after decluttering my desk.  [Friday:  Having that task in my morning routine is challenging.  Hopefully, it will only be four more days.]
 
Okay, I am all set for tomorrow and on until Tuesday.  Of course, then I have to get my Colorado drivers license.  I will set up plans for that soon.
 

Happiness

 
Gretchen Rubin writes about happiness and relates what she sees or thinks or reads about to her own experience.  My blog is Joyful Vibrance, which has a happiness theme.  I do much the same thing.  I focus on helping people safely improve their mood and energy.  I say safely, because deliberately elevating one’s mood can lead to a dangerous (even life-threatening) condition called mania, unless there is some control on it.  Elevating one’s mood with drugs is usually not safe either.  With my history of going over the top, I sometimes doubt my ability to be a role model.  However, I am learning the principles behind a happy life and applying as many as possible.
 
Lately, I have discussed mental health in this blog, while reading three books:  one about psychosis, and two about bipolar disorder.  Bipolar may or may not involve psychosis; for me it does.  People with mental health conditions struggle with fluctuations in their mood and energy.  If the mental health condition is not enough of a challenge, the medications used to treat it make it even more challenging.  However, the disease is usually worse than the medication used to treat it, especially if the medication has been carefully pared down to the smallest, effective dose.
 

Motivation

 
When suffering mental health disorders, motivation becomes a serious problem because many of us do not want to do anything difficult unless we are in the mood, and we may not be in the mood consistently enough to accomplish anything substantial.  However, happiness can be increased by working on challenging goals.  So is there any hope of finding happiness for someone who has a mental health diagnosis?
 
I think there is.  We may not be able to do the grandiose projects our mental health condition may have once inspired us to start (but never finish).  However, we can have a meaningful, productive life.  We can develop consistency.  My JV Life Tracker app is a tool to help build that.
 
 
 
 
EVENING Prayer
 
Dear Lord,
 
We procrastinate things until we are in the mood.  Big mistake!  However, we can do things even though we are not in the mood.
 
I am learning time management techniques from top bloggers.  They are actually simple.
 
Lord, I still have a fear of getting trapped by psychosis again.  However, after reading Recovering Sanity, I feel more confident that I know which of my behaviors trigger psychosis.  They are 1) becoming subservient to my inner voice and 2) going after every impulsive prompting it gives me.
 
Instead, I need to follow my morning routine and check off my list in JV Life Tracker.  I need continuity in working on my goals.  I cannot decide today I am going to accomplish some great thing and expect it
to be done overnight.  Consistent effort is needed instead.
 
I may fear that people will think I am crazy.  They may disagree with me.  By using daily affirmations, as I begin to believe my 14 beliefs for a popular blog, I feel more confident that I will handle that and be okay.
 
I have dreamed of and started many projects, but it is time to refrain from starting and stopping projects and get consistent, even if I am not in the mood!
 
If I write every day, I can keep the momentum going.  Of course, I need to also attend to business tasks regarding my blog.  I plan to also get more consistent with those.
 
Lord, bless my readers with the courage to act consistently on their dreams, even when they are not in the mood.  Give them vibrant joy–safely, of course.
 
Amen.
 
If you would like to join me in this journey from the beginning, please start with Day One.
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
KaeLyn Morrill
 
 

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