Day 26, The Desires of My Heart

“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:4 NIV)
God has fulfilled one of my desires!  The scale budged again.  I have now lost 2.5 kilos since Day One with 2.3 kilos more to lose.  My new strategy works.  My prayer is that it will keep on working.  Today is my fourth day with it.  Again, this morning I will have a green drink for breakfast.


I reread Tony Robbins last night.  I recommend his work to pump your motivation and obtain your desires.  Knowledge of foods is useful too. Cronometer will help you with that.  I am here to advise you to use Cronometer or a similar electronic food log.  Beware of the many experts who tell you, “Diets don’t work.”  Your diet, along with your thoughts, have everything to do with it.  Your diet is one thing that tells your genes to express themselves.  If you want some stimulating reading, also read Dr. Bruce Lipton’s The Biology of Belief.
Last night, I shopped online for jeans.  I took my waist measurement:  31 inches–a bit bigger than it was the last time I checked.   I cannot fit into the jeans I want to buy.  My hips are too small, and my waist is too broad.  Hopefully, as this diet progresses, I can trim my waistline.  I plan to focus on that as much as my weight.  Exercise may be as important as diet for that so that I will concentrate more on that.  Exercise also affects how genes express themselves.  Then I can wear the jeans my heart desires.
Another stimulating read about genetics is Deepak Chopra and Rudolph Tanzi’s Super Genes. To improve your epigenetics, they recommend choosing a small salubrious behavior a week and incorporating it into your lifestyle.  They have a long list of possibilities to choose from that each affects your gene expression.  I recommend tracking your desired behaviors with an app such as JV Life Tracker.  The strategy is to keep adding new healthy habits without dropping ones you are already doing.  That can be a challenge to do.  You may end up tracking 100 or more items.


For the fifth day in a row, I have started my day with a green drink.  They can vary, but I do recommend green drinks for breakfast.
I recently read a gem of a book titled, Don’t Overthink It by Anne Bogel.  She talked about decision fatigue.  To simplify your life, reduce the number of decisions you make in a day.  She introduced the idea of eating the same thing daily.  I have always varied my diet, but there is wisdom in sticking to the tried and true.  One of those things is a green drink.  I recommend that you incorporate them into your diet, preferably for breakfast.  If I waited until later in the day to make one, I would often talk myself out of them for one reason or another.

Blood Pressure

I will check my blood pressure–125/89 with an 88 bpm pulse.  For someone who has needed blood pressure medicine for years, without medication, that is not bad.  I am not sure why my pulse is up again, but I have recently been walking.  Breakfast had 2215.9 mg of potassium, which probably helped.


This morning I woke up at about 2:30 AM.  Instead of staying up, I used a meditation mp3 and got right back to sleep before the end of the recording.   One of my desires is to get seven hours of sleep per night.  That is a challenge for me.   I am yawning, so I am not quite there yet.
Jesus also said, “You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.” (John 14:14).  Of course, I have interpreted this to mean that he would heal me if I asked, which so far has not happened.  I am hoping to have a greater understanding of this over the coming years.  Let me not give up hope, though.  I am doing well right now.  I have learned many mood-lifting tricks.  There is the hope of mastery in that area.  I do not believe that I am doomed to a bad mood.


People can use a Bible verse like that to prove the Bible and Christianity wrong.  They say, “See, I prayed, and I did not get what I asked for!”  Have they waited long enough?  I have received a surprisingly large percentage of what I have asked for; I have long awaited healing, though.  I have suffered from bipolar disorder for more than 35 years.  What do you think I should do about that?  I understand now that it is an incurable disease.  However, that should not make it impossible for Jesus to heal.  My neighbor, who is a nurse, said, “Don’t try to cure yourself.”  I suppose that is what I have tried to do.
My answer came in a book, Where is God When It Hurts? by Philip Yancey.  He contrasted two people with quadriplegia.  One sat in his bedroom, waiting for God to heal him.  The other, Joni Eareckson Tada, produced art with a utensil in her mouth, became an author and radio host, championing Christian values.  She did not wait around for God to heal her.
That was the answer:  live the best life possible and not wait around for God to heal me.  I have already seen miracles with just what I have done.  I recently broke out of a lengthy depression by initiating a meaningful project and felt joyful again.


However, I had one down day, actually three.  While examining those days, I noticed that I ate gluten.  Could gluten exacerbate my depression?  I have read that it can but was never sure how it affected me.  Now I have another clue.  I have been off gluten for most of this diet, and I have felt better.  In 1996, when I had depression so severe I had shock treatments, I was doing something unusual.  A lady came to our business, selling tasty sandwiches.  I ate one almost every day.  Could that have been a factor in that horrible depression?  For most of this year, I have been eating gluten.  For most of this year, I have been depressed.  I have not wanted to admit it, but there could be a connection.
Gluten is challenging to eliminate from your diet, of course.  And it probably is still not necessary for me to be absolute about it.  However, what I am doing now is working.  If you are unsure about gluten, get a list of its possible side effects.  See if the ones you experience go away when you get off gluten.  At least, please give it a trial of several weeks.  It may not be affecting you, but chances are it is.
Gluten impairs the ability of the intestines to absorb nutrients.  I go to great lengths to ensure that adequate nutrients are in my diet.  If my body cannot absorb nutrients, what good has that done?  I have wasted my money and time.  Today, I will commit to avoiding gluten.  If someone serves it to me, I may still eat it, but I will not provide it for myself.
It is approximately one hour until lunch.  I have yet to do my morning walk.


I took my morning walk to the library and back.  This time I checked out a book.  I got home just in time for a delivery that was already waiting at the building’s main door.  I ate my blueberry walnut Mini Joy and took care of my husband’s needs for food, changing, and back-scratching.  Later, I had a snack of pork tenderloin.  I read a portion of my new library book and some Tony Robbins.

Rate of Loss

I am a bit fatigued but not to the point of taking a nap.  Today is a happy day because of my diet progress.  I have received one of my heart’s desires.  Counting today, I have averaged a 0.1 kg loss per day.  If I continue at that rate, I will reach my ideal weight in 23 more days, meaning that I am already past my halfway mark.  Of course, not every day is likely to be an average day.  It sometimes gets frustrating, waiting for a loss to occur.  However, if I trust my process and stick to it, I believe things will go well, even if it is not exactly on schedule.

Do Not Give Up

I do not expect you to do precisely the same thing I have, but I hope that my example is one you can glean ideas from that will work for you.  If you have followed my blog from before Day One, you will know that I tried for two years to lose 15 pounds.  However, for numerous reasons, it did not work out.  It was a learning experience; however, that taught me how to do it better next time.   You may have failed at attempts to lose weight yourself.  Do not give up.  Learn from what you have done and go on.  If you have to start over as I did, then do.  However, I did not start from scratch.  I had years of experience from which to draw.

DelectaBalance Diet

If someone tells you, “Diets don’t work,” and you believe it, you have kept yourself from succeeding at losing weight.  At the Institute for Integrative Nutrition, we studied 100 different diets.  Different diets suit different people, but all of those diets have worked for at least some people.  In this blog, I have not adhered strictly to any of them.  My approach is integrative.  I call my diet the DelectaBalance diet because it is delectable and offers balanced nutrition.  Without a diet diary such as Cronometer, it is virtually impossible to see whether your diet is balanced or not.

Consider Eating the Same Thing Every Day

If you eat the same thing every day, you could balance your diet, memorize it, and not have to log every day.  I have never followed that approach, but it may suit you to a tee.

What To Do If Others Control Your Diet

If others control your diet, please spend time communicating with them about what you want.  My neighbors serve me almost three ounces of mixed nuts twice weekly.  I took control of the situation by taking my digital scale on my visits to weigh how much they were giving me.  I increased my knowledge of what they were serving without stopping them.  Then, as you saw yesterday, I adjusted my food plan to make the nuts work in my diet.  They did so beautifully.
Consider yourself as a king or queen, with your exact food preferences getting taken into account.  Be assertive.  I wish I were more proactive about food than I am.  I was silenced at home for having opinions about food.  However, I think I can overcome my embarrassment and say things in a non-offensive way.  Submitting yourself to what someone else says you must eat is one of the worst things you can do.  In that case, you will probably gain weight without the ability to take it off.

Food Independence

I lived with my parents for a year before they built an apartment for me in their basement.  I wanted food independence more than anything; it was one of my heart’s desires.  I struggled that year with my weight.  I had been in the hospital three times in twelve months for a total of 34 days.  A hospital is one of the worst places for weight control, particularly if you take drugs that force your weight up.  Once I obtained my food independence, I could do something about my weight and stay on my medication.
What will I do once I lose this weight?  I will aggressively keep it off.  That may mean resorting to a two-meal day whenever the scale goes up.  I want this to be the last time I have to take this much weight off.  Thankfully, I have only five more pounds to lose.

Diet Diary



Dear Lord,
Thanks for answering my plea last night for weight loss.  I have now lost more than half of my intended kilos.  Please help me to stay in the game until I reach my goal.
Today has been a quiet day with my husband.  I often take time for meditation or self-hypnosis.  I think relaxation is helping my weight loss.  It certainly did not support me to run around in stress all the time.
Reducing stress may be the most challenging thing for my readers to accomplish while losing weight.  The critical thing is not to get stressed out about being stressed.  Similarly, do not get depressed about being depressed.  Do not be anxious about your anxiety.  Find solutions to these problems.  Much of what I know about stress-proofing, I have outlined in the following mindmap.
My excess weight has roughly been the following:
  • 1.5 kilograms I did not finish losing last year
  • 1.5 kilograms gained from depression earlier this year
  • 2 kilograms gained from the pandemic
  • 1.5 kilograms gained from being in the hospital
I lost the hospital and pandemic weight.  I am about to finish losing the depression weight.  Then I will finish off by taking off what I did not lose last December when I had nearly reached my goal.
My readers may have layers of weight gain like that, especially this year.  My neighbor complained that she had gained 15 pounds during the pandemic.  It is incredible what this situation has cost us.  I would guess that most of my readers have not yet shed their pandemic weight.  If I can help them with these blog entries, let me do that.
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This article, with its diet diary, shows what worked for me.  I do not claim that it will work for you.  Consult a licensed medical provider to determine your diet and medical care.  These blog entries do not diagnose or treat any disease.  If I provide any clues for you or your provider, I will be happy.

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